Pills and chocolate

I once heard chocolate might help against certain pains. I am just trying: I will have finished the bar before I end this post. I had an emergency pill, was on the edge of calling the hospital.

Maybe I should not go to work tomorrow. I seemingly am in good health, only me and my doctors know it better. I don't want to stay at home. I have an invitations for even two parties this weekend. Yes, I do want to lock myself up in my room, but I must not. I have to mingle.

I hate this. I am stuck on the level where almost everything seems fine, but still something is wrong with me. I have no dangerous symptoms, just nasty and painful ones. I think the sugar from the chocolate starts working. Maybe I should have had a beer, and not the pill. Too late, both together would be dangerous. I'll have one tomorrow I hope. Or we start one of my whiskey bottles as already discussed.

I will get to use my camera. As funny a kind of comfort as the chocolate - but it works. I really hoped I would be this weekend in a state where I can party all night (like at the Alumni night for example). Wishful thinking, but I'll give it a try. There is always a train home. Maybe I should give a party myself, once all this is over. The day wilkl come, no matter how hard I have to fight for it.