What you were changing me into

OK, I had a learningful time, know meanwhile more about my my metabolism than most people in the world learn in their entire life, receive compliments by doctors that I can describe my pain, symptoms and body functions in detail. I blogged more than ever before and received tremendous support by all kinds of people. But can now finally get this to an end? Can I finally get a new life and live in peace?

My doc asked me to keep him updated on what is happening with me. I wrote him. It might worry him more than it did myself. I got too used to this and yet am so fed up with it. I believe the hope in me, that now finally this medication might bring the cure. But I don't feel it. The last two days I actually felt too often the opposite. This bitch stole a good part of my weekend. And tomorrow I am supposed to go to work. I have to go. I have to prove myself that things are kind of normal, what they are not. But I keep trying - as I did for years as it seems.



Don’t stay
Forget what you were changing me into
(Just give me myself back and)
Don’t stay