I am working on it

Every time I feel very bad, I feel even better than before the next day. Yesterday again I had a low - a deep and frightening one. But today it got better again. But now, despite a fun evening that I had treating my mum and my aunt in my favored restaurant, it feels hard to ignore the pain - and the fear it causes. I am much better than just a few weeks back, but I sometimes doubt if I ever get back to health. I should ignore this.

Let's get the good sides out of this: the medication makes me look younger: acne has joint the catalog of side effects. I keep being optimistic. Or do I try to keep being optimistic?

Ok, let's try again: I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, it feels sometimes. And maybe this time the light approaching is indeed going to be the exit - and not a truck full of side effects running over me.

Anyway, I drop in the pills now and sleep until tomorrow. In the morning I will feel better, as I always do. And I will sleep in between, as well as I did never in the years before. There are good things in taking these pills. My insomnia is gone, the nights are so peaceful. I am grateful for all the hours/nights/weeks of sleep that I am catching up. If I feel bad now, than for the sake of feeling better tomorrow. I am grateful for seeing the tomorrow.