Don't ask
Before I start the post: warning for all members of AIESEC in Switzerland: if you happen to go to the MC-office around noon, you might be spontaneously delegated to cook. I actually enjoyed standing in that kitchen again and also wanted to prove myself that I am able to fulfill a task as easy as cooking for 6 people. And finally I could hand over to the MC the 1200 (or 8GB of) KickOff snaps.
Been to the hospital again for a checkup yesterday. The doc was happy and so was I. I am on the right track. And I won my bet from Wednesday: He increased the dose and prescribed me drugs for the next 3 months. Before him seeing me off, I questioned him.
I wanted to know if it was possible that the illness had been affecting me over the last years under the surface, without me really recognizing it as such. I am trying to figure out when it started. We know that looking at the symptoms it appeared sometime around October but became perilous only around March. But I wonder if it handicapped my life already before.
"Possibly." the doc answered.
The good thing: That would mean, that once all this is over I am going to feel better than ever in the past 3 years!
"Probably." he answered stoically on my assumption. Also he repeated, that I am going to have to keep the drugs for another 6 to 9 months after the cure, in order to cure for good. In the very worst case I am going to be forced to take medication for the rest of my life. However, considering the alternative scenario, the doc called this a fair deal. I must agree.
I know I should not ask myself this question, but I wonder what would have happened in the past years if I had started the medication earlier.
The doc said a lot of people in my situation raise similar questions. There is no answer.
I thought a lot about India these days, hence it is the most logic that I post some Pakistani song here...
Been to the hospital again for a checkup yesterday. The doc was happy and so was I. I am on the right track. And I won my bet from Wednesday: He increased the dose and prescribed me drugs for the next 3 months. Before him seeing me off, I questioned him.
I wanted to know if it was possible that the illness had been affecting me over the last years under the surface, without me really recognizing it as such. I am trying to figure out when it started. We know that looking at the symptoms it appeared sometime around October but became perilous only around March. But I wonder if it handicapped my life already before.
"Possibly." the doc answered.
The good thing: That would mean, that once all this is over I am going to feel better than ever in the past 3 years!
"Probably." he answered stoically on my assumption. Also he repeated, that I am going to have to keep the drugs for another 6 to 9 months after the cure, in order to cure for good. In the very worst case I am going to be forced to take medication for the rest of my life. However, considering the alternative scenario, the doc called this a fair deal. I must agree.
I know I should not ask myself this question, but I wonder what would have happened in the past years if I had started the medication earlier.
The doc said a lot of people in my situation raise similar questions. There is no answer.
I thought a lot about India these days, hence it is the most logic that I post some Pakistani song here...
posted by Sabi at 10:05 PM
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