Come to daddy!

This is the model of the protein that I am missing these days. It is not even proved if it has a direct impact on my illness (aka the bitch), but once patients have more of this in the blood, the symptoms kinda disappear. No, medicine is not always an exact science!

I spent some time reading about my disorder on the web. I found some interesting facts, but it would be too cynical, hilarious, humiliating, disappointing and sad to share it here. Just so much: they cannot ad it directly to the body, otherwise the entire body would go crazy, like this it is only my mind that blows up!

Today started actually smoothly (meaning I had my usual 10:30am sleep in) and now goes down down down! I hate you bitch! 3:6 the score!

The marvelous weather outside (f***ing cold and f***ing rainy) does not help. Anyway, my mood is so bad, that the good weather yesterday did not exactly make me cheer neither. I just remembered that spring is not my favored season, don't ask me why.

However, hope shall not die, me neither. I will get out of this or at least the person it makes out of me. So wait, the soundtrack. Hmmm, good weather, opening skies and dark mood? How about some German music?